That day with my parents at that lake

What She Has in Store for Me

I thought for a while that I could control it. I could direct my heart, and if I did so well enough I could rewrite it. I thought for a long time that I could overcome the desire of mother nature herself, and so I pushed into her with all my strength. I assumed she was testing me, looking for my determination to rise. 

She was resilient. A brick wall that did not wear in comparison to my soft body. I stop pushing last week. Decided to maybe listen instead. At first I did not like what she had to say, that wall keeping me out. But something is better now, that Mother - I think she might have a point. Maybe I could try for a while, looking towards the direction she has in mind. 

It’s worth a try.

I Always See You

I have tried everything I can think of, and I am still here. I am done fighting however, it never did serve me that well. Plus, I have never been that fond of it anyway. It just is what it is. It can’t stop. I know this because for years I have tried.

But loving you was never a choice. And it remains the same now. A force within me that I can’t overcome. A force much bigger then me that pulls me towards you. No matter what I have done, and where I have gone. When it ends, it is always you. I always just see you. 

From The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

“Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second’s encounter with God and with eternity. Every second of the search is an encounter with God.” 

You, the richest person in the World, have been laboring and struggling endlessly. Not knowing that you already posess all that you seek.
The Lotus Sutra (via lazyyogi)
(Reblogged from lazyyogi)